Discoveries

When one decides to explore a part of themselves, it can sometimes be joyful and sometimes not. As I think back over the last 10+ years, I realize that I have learned a lot of truths during this journey of self discovery. Some have given me the strength to continue, while others have greatly saddened me. I suppose the most important thing to remember is that I need to apply these lessons learned. Oh, and also that even an old broad can learn a lot!

On this journey, I have discovered:

that giving up control doesn't mean giving up my brain.

that I can't make someone love me. And, if they don't, I am still a valuable person.

that trust and respect have to be earned, not demanded or expected, both by me and by others.

that the trust that took so long to build, can be destroyed in an instant.

that it isn't WHAT I have, but WHO I am that really counts.

that being dishonest is really just cheating myself.

that comparing myself to other submissives accomplishes nothing.

that what happens to me is not as important as what I do about it.

that decisions I make in an instant, good or bad, can impact the rest of my life.

that it's never too late to explore who I am.

that I really do enjoy my own company.

that it is often easier to react than to think.

that even if someone treats me badly, I am still responsible for my own actions.

that heroes are people who do what's right or necessary, even though they are afraid.

that being submissive intensifies the joy, but it also intensifies the heartache.

that money is NOT the way to keep score.

that hurting is usually the first step to healing.

that forgiving gets easier with practice.

that much of being submissive is just plain ol' good manners.

that being angry doesn't mean it's ok to be cruel.

that growing up has more to do with what you've experienced than how old you are.

that families take care of you, love you, and teach you to trust again, even if they aren't related to you.

that sometimes it's more important to forgive yourself than to be forgiven by others.

that I have something valuble to offer, no matter what the world, an abuser, or someone that's supposed to love me has to say about it.

that being submissive doesn't mean I deserve less respect.

that the world doesn't stop, no matter how badly my heart is broken.

that when I'm honest with myself, I will be more successful in life.

that "pain" is a relative term.

that obedience usually makes me happier and means less time in the corner. :)

Melonie