I suppose busy-ness could be an excuse for being missing in action. But, even I have to admit that an absence of over 2 years is a little extreme. I even forgot my log in information and had to jump through several hoops to retrieve it.
Things are good :-)
I read back over my prior posts, which extend back numerous years. Oh my, how life has progressed and changed!
First of all, the ex-Master and I have managed to work our way to a very nice friendship. There is no play, sex, or M/s involved. He has a girlfriend and I have a play partner. We are very comfortable with each other. It's actually very nice and certainly about time since things ended 5 or 6 years ago.
I am also comfortable within the local bdsm community. The horrible depression that clouded my world for decades is long gone. I no longer feel the desparate loneliness and sense of unfulfillment I once felt.
As I said, things are good!
At the moment, I'm experiencing the pleasant soreness that follows an intense session of playing :-) Recently, I have begun playing with a wonderful Dominant. I must admit that I am amazed. I have actually found someone that pushes me to the point of wanting to stop. That NEVER happens. In addition, we play very frequently, which never happened with previous Dominants or with the ex-Master. I am loving this!
I suppose I am just living in the moment now. I don't look for a care-taker. I don't look for permanence. I don't look for commitment. I don't look for a Dominant. I'm not quite sure exactly what the relationship is that I have with T. And that is ok. He is in charge during play, while I am along for the ride. We are not exclusive and even discuss the interest we have in others. So, I don't have a label for T and I, which is also ok.
I will say more in later posts. Enough for now.
I'm back :-)
Melonie
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