Balancing act

A high wire is not a comfortable place in which to exist. Yet, that is where I find myself.

I am in a relationship of sorts. But, I'm not sure what to call it. Are we dating? Are we friends that also play? Friends with benefits? What?

We aren't exclusive. We have discussed playing with others. Yes, we will if we like. Yes, we will keep each other informed if it happens. Yes, we will continue to play with each other.

So, I have a whole list of "things" I use to remind myself not to become attached. Remembering his interest in others. Re-living his reminders that we have established boundaries and have to respect them. Making suggestions to him about others he could play with. And so on.

In the meantime, I try to keep an emotional distance. I'm trying to stay on that high wire I mentioned. Because if I fall, it's a long way down and it's a really painful landing.

If only the play wasn't soooo awesome. I'm addicted!

Just put one foot carefully in front of the other, Melonie, and don't look down.